sensationalrose17

A friend reminded me of how clearer my head seems to be when i write things down so here the down low on me right now. I am feeling as good as i did when i first got to uni and im smiling so much again it makes me laugh inside. My teeth are fixed so there is plenty of reason to smile and im not as sick as i use to be yeah.Im finding my cousin being gone pretty hard to deal with and i just deal with it differently to most of my family so i think they think i dont get whats going on or that i have got over it to quickly i havent got over it i miss her and i regret so m uch that i wasnt more a part of her life but when  i think of her i think of

Had a very hard time with dealing with death in the family wanting to be strong for everyone but at the same time how can i then express what im feeling i just cant seem ti win in any situation i get into and it just keeps knocking me down peg by peg. I dont seem to have the right sense of humour for anyone these days im just trying to smile. Not sure how to deal with things i just think its best to take it day by day. My mum and me feel as if therer is something worse coming i just hope where wrong i hope its just our feeling towards the fuenaral. I just need a friend but i dont have pepople i can trust i dont have anyone because im too worr

Completly board and sick and tired of most guys they only think about one thing its so stupid that they let something so small rule there lives. GET over it get a life and live gosh. Sorry complete rant anyways im off to uni in 3WEEKS so ace and im off to bath next week on hols with sisters should be intresting anyways night hope people read this and i hope they have a great holiday.xx